We got some news today. I am not quite sure how to classify this news, in terms of "bad" or "good".
Steven is not going to be deployed. Obviously, as any military spouse knows, deployment sucks for so many reasons, especially the second, third, or fourth deployment. When Steven reviled he had volunteered to deploy, I can't say I was exactly giddy about the prospect, but I've spent so much time in our marriage complaining about his military career, I did not want to make an issue of it. I decided to just support him in his decision, and look at the plus side (yes, there is one). It would allow him to go back to work for a while; I know him being unemployed for as long as he has been really tough for everyone, especially him. It kills him that he's not out there, earning a living for his family. There's also the money; deployment provides a very decent income, and right now, that's exactly what we need.
He was very excited to go for those reasons. Obviously, he was kind of backed into a corner by the situation we're in, but overall, he felt he could better serve his family and his country overseas. It was all but guaranteed that he would go.
Then the mission was canceled. No one is going.
Now we're back to square one. Faced with the summer with no employment for him did not sit well for my dear hubby. Needless to say, he wasn't happy. I am happy that I won't have to send my husband to war, but the prospect of one, two, three, four, who knows how many more months with only his minuscule Reserve pay, and our equally small rental income to support us is, I am not going to lie, pretty scary.
The silver lining has been that my business, which should provide a huge cushion to our expenses, should be up and running (and making money) in less than a month. This daycare won't make us rich, or, let's face it, even sustained. But it will be an income that will be coming in, that we can use to pay or bills, and it will take the pressure off my husband to earn more. Now he can just focus on getting work, without focusing on the income requirements he set for himself as the sole breadwinner.
On the same day he got the news that he would not deploy, he also learned he is going to be promoted early next year.
One step forward, one step back.
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